84 Songs About Suicide and Suicide Prevention

Updated on September 20, 2018
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Music is a powerful communication tool.  Songs from this Save A Life Playlist aim to prevent suicide and raise awareness about its lasting impact on family, friends, and others.
Music is a powerful communication tool. Songs from this Save A Life Playlist aim to prevent suicide and raise awareness about its lasting impact on family, friends, and others. | Source

Life Does Get Better If You Can Hang On

I was 15 years old when a male friend drove his truck out to the middle of nowhere one night and didn't come back. He died by suicide, and a part of me went with him. Death by suicide runs deep in my family, across generations. I hated that it touched my friends, too.

Sadly, while the rest of his peers graduated, went off to college or the military, or found work in local factories, my friend missed out. The rest of his peers became adults and met the love(s) of their small town lives. They married, had children, and some of them divorced (in various orders, but that's okay).

They ventured to far flung locations to pursue careers that some of them would never have imagined as teenagers. He missed those adventures as well. He will always be frozen in time as a high school sophomore in the sad land of "What if?"

Why People Die by Suicide
Why People Die by Suicide

If your life has been touched by suicide loss as mine has been, this book provides an explanation for the reasons people turn to death by suicide, from neurobiological, genetic, cultural to learned reasons. It was written by a clinical psychologist whose own life was touched by suicide loss.

 

If you're struggling with depression or thoughts of suicide, stop and seek help now. While it may feel like you're out of options, if you can just hang on, life does get better. If you don't have someone you can talk to, reach out to one of the crisis intervention resources listed in this article.

If you've experienced the loss by suicide of someone you care for and want to raise prevention awareness, we are kindred souls. This playlist consists of pop, rock, country, metal, and R&B songs that do not glorify suicide but rather seek to prevent self-harm and remind people that suicide permanently impacts many lives.

1. "Lullaby" by Nickelback

Sung from the perspective of someone who has been there, the narrator in this 2012 rock song expresses the urgency of turning away from the ledge of suicide. He tells his friend that they are not alone and expresses faith in their decision-making, even at the last moment.

Please let me take you
Out of the darkness and into the light
'Cause I have faith in you
That you're gonna make it through another night.
Stop thinking about the easy way out
There's no need to go and blow the candle out
Because you're not done.
You're far too young
And the best is yet to come.

2. "How To Save a Life" by The Fray

This 2005 was inspired by the lead singer's work with troubled teens. The song describes an example of how to listen non-defensively and provide the necessary support to someone who feels they are all out of options.

3. "Why" by Rascal Flatts

In this touching 2009 country song, the grieving narrator struggles to make sense of a 17-year-old friend's suicide. He wonders

  • why he didn't see it coming
  • if there was something he could have done to prevent the death and
  • what could possibly explain walking away "in the middle of a song."

September is National Suicide Prevention Awareness Month

Suicide Facts & Statistics

 
 
Each suicide intimately affects at least 6 other people such as immediate family members, relatives, neighbors, co-workers, friends, fellow students, health care providers, etc.
More than 50% of completed suicides are by firearm. Access to a firearm is a major predictor of completed suicide.
Males comprise 79% of all completed suicides. Women have more suicidal thoughts.
On average, one person dies by suicide every 16.2 minutes.
Physicians are more more than two times as likely to die by suicide as non-physicians.
In the United States, the months of March, April, and May demonstrate consistently higher rates of suicide than other months of the year.
A suicide note is left behind in only a minority of cases (10-35%).
A family history of suicide significantly increases suicide risk, regardless of whether a person is mentally ill.
At least 90% of people who complete suicide have a diagnosable mental illness at the time of death. Undiagnosed, undertreated, or untreated depression is common, for example.
Each day, an average of 20 American veterans die by suicide. Compared with nonmilitary civilians, veterans are at a 21% higher risk of suicide. Female veterans are at special risk.

4. "Everybody Hurts" by R.E.M.

This 1992 song was written with a teenage audience in mind, although its lyrics speak directly to anyone who is suffering. It tries to impress upon those who are depressed and contemplating suicide that they are not alone. Everyone hurts. Take comfort in your friends and hang on.

Reach Out For Help: Don't Suffer In Silence

If you are considering suicide, reach out for help.  There are many crisis resources available to assist you 24/7. Call the National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433).
If you are considering suicide, reach out for help. There are many crisis resources available to assist you 24/7. Call the National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433). | Source

National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433)

If you or someone you know are depressed and considering suicide, call the National Hopeline Network at 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433). Your call is free and confidential. Or chat live with a crisis volunteer at http://hopeline.com/.

5. "Goodbye (I'm Sorry)" by Jamestown Story

The narrator in this 2007 song indicates that time has run out on him, and he is ready to leave this world behind. He has experienced abuse, an untreated emotional disorder, and deep feelings of worthlessness. With regret, he is saying goodbye.

Towards the end of the song, there is a sudden cut to brief spoken facts about suicide, plus a phone number for the National Hopeline Network (1.800.784.2433). Unfortunately, a 2011 version of the song omits this important information.

6. "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day

Sung from the perspective of a depressed and lonely person, this 2004 song is about feeling isolated by one's personal problems. The narrator walks a boulevard of broken dreams, accompanied only by his shadow.

However, he offers that "sometimes I wish someone out there will find me." People who are suicidal often signal their intent to others.

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What Is a Survivor of Suicide Loss?

People who have lost someone they care about to suicide are referred to as "survivors of suicide loss."

As the ones left behind, they are often haunted for many years by guilt, anger, and questions that can never be answered. Survivors are at risk for post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Their grief is also still stigmatized.

7. "Fire and Rain" by James Taylor

This classic 1970 song is one of Rolling Stone magazine's 500 Greatest Songs of All Time. It references the death by suicide of James Taylor's childhood friend, Suzanne Schnerr, as well as his struggle with drug addiction and depression and his reflections on fame.

Taylor's lingering sense of loss is reflected in the song's famous refrain:

I've seen fire and I've seen rain.
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end.
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1.800.273.TALK (8255)

Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) to talk with a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area. Available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

8. "You're Only Human (Second Wind)" by Billy Joel

Billy Joel once attempted suicide, and he wrote this upbeat 1985 song for a teenage audience to remind them that it's okay to make mistakes. Between accidents, heartbreaks, and bad choices that leave you with a bad reputation — hey, life happens — you may feel like giving up, but stick it out.

The narrator promises that brighter times are ahead:

Don't forget your second wind
Sooner or later you'll feel that momentum kick in.

Feeling Like Your Path Ahead Is Closed? Seek Help Now

Help is available if you feel like you have run out of options.  Don't go it alone.
Help is available if you feel like you have run out of options. Don't go it alone. | Source

9. "Stay Alive" by Smile Empty Soul

Alternative rock offers up this soothing 2009 song that provides reassurance to anyone feeling stuck, like they're out of options. Even if you feel misunderstood, lied to, and like nothing is going right, stay alive. Even if you feel nothing is right in your head or you're in too deep, stay alive. Better days are ahead.

10. "The Last Night" by Skillet

One friend approaches another in this 2006 Christian rock song, intending to issue a final farewell. However, the friend senses the lie and promises to be their lifeline: "I won't let you say goodbye. I'll be your reason why."

11. "One Last Breath" by Creed

At first, this 2001 song's protagonist believes he's found the unfortunate road to nowhere and is in grave danger of falling. He is down to one last breath, struggling to survive. Then he finds the road to somewhere, reflects on his mistakes, and comes to believe that there is something left for him in this world.

12. "How Do You Get That Lonely" by Blaine Larsen

This 2005 song asks the question that many people ask, in disbelief. How do you get that lonely, feel that empty, hurt that bad that death seems like the only option? The protagonist is without blame and just doesn't understand. (If one has never experienced depression, this may be very hard to comprehend.)

Printed underneath a sports story in the local newspaper was an article about an 18-year-old who died by suicide. It didn't even make the front page, but it would change the lives of his family, friends, and others forever.

13. "That Year" by Brandi Carlisle

The narrator in this song from 2009 lost a classmate to suicide. As a traumatized survivor of suicide loss, she couldn't say his name for 10 years, but is now finally coming to terms with what happened:

You were lonesome and blue eyed
And so special to us
You should have taken a long break
Instead of a long drop from a high place.

14. "Never Too Late" by Three Days Grace

A man is desperately trying to convince someone he cares about that it's never too late to decide that you want to live rather than die. He explains that the world will never be what you expected. The song was released in 2006.

15. "Jumper" by Third Eye Blind

Step away from the ledge. That's what the narrator in this 1997 song tells his suicidal friend on the bridge. He validates that there may be difficult life challenges that seem monumental. Then he encourages him to face those demons down rather than trying to escape them this way.

16. "Whiskey Lullaby" by Brad Paisley & Alison Krauss

This haunting 2003 country song illustrates that alcoholism plays a role in one-third of all completed suicides.

After a woman broke her lover's heart, he spent the rest of his life wrapped around a whiskey bottle, trying to forget. Eventually, however, they found him dead with a suicide note nearby. Guilt consumed her, and she also became an alcoholic who died in a similar manner. ONe broken relationship, two tragedies.

Most suicides occur during the beginning of the week.
Most suicides occur during the beginning of the week. | Source

17. "Hold On" by Wilson Philips

This empowering song from 1990 provides hope and encouragement for people who feel distressed, unhappy, and stepped upon by others. It promises that change is indeed possible if you can simply make it through the short-term circumstances of today:

Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day?

18. "By the Grace of God" by Katy Perry

In this emotional 2013 song, a protagonist experienced a heartbreak and found herself being blamed for the unraveled relationship. Feeling defeated, she lay on the bathroom floor in tears. With determination and the help of her sister, she decided to stay alive:

By the grace of God
There was no other way
I picked myself back up
I knew I had to stay
I put one foot in front of the other
And I looked in the mirror
And decided to stay
Wasn't gonna let love take me out that way.

19. "Hey Stoopid" by Alice Cooper

Yep, seriously. You wouldn't expect this 1991 song from "The Godfather of Shock Rock." The song addresses the person who might be considering ending their life by telling them in no-nonsense terms that it's a terrible idea and they're not alone.

Suicide is associated with diagnosable mental illness.  Most often this includes depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, post-traumatic stress disorder, and substance abuse.
Suicide is associated with diagnosable mental illness. Most often this includes depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, post-traumatic stress disorder, and substance abuse. | Source

Crisis Text Line Number 741741

If you're in crisis and prefer to text rather than call, then here's a confidential crisis line staffed nationally by trained counselors in texting and suicide prevention. Text "HOME" to 741741 from anywhere in the United States.

Suicide Warning Signs

TALK - If a person talks about:
BEHAVIOR - Specific things to look out for include:
MOOD - People who are considering suicide often display one or more of the following moods
Being a burden to others
Increased use of alcohol or drugs
Depression
Feeling trapped
Looking for a way to kill themselves, such as searching online for materials or means
Loss of interest
Experiencing unbearable pain
Acting recklessly
Rage
Having no reason to live
Withdrawing from activities
Irritability
Killing themselves
Isolating from family and friends
Humiliation
Feeling hopeless
Sleeping too much or too little
Anxiety
 
Visiting or calling people to say goodbye
 
 
Giving away prized possessions
 
 
Aggression
 
Source: American Foundation for Suicide Prevention

20. "Save Me" by Shinedown

In this 2005 hard rock song, a substance-addicted narrator living on the streets has reached his rock bottom. Now desperate to preserve his life rather than destroy it, he pleads, "Somebody save me. Please don't erase me."

Even More Songs About Suicide and Suicide Prevention

Song
Artist
Year Released
21. Don't Give Up
Peter Gabriel (featuring Kate Bush)
1986
22. Make It Stop (September's Children)
Rise Against
2011
23. On a Bus to St. Cloud
Trisha Yearwood
1995
24. Rise Above This
Seether
2008
25. A Day Without Me
U2
1980
26. Bad Luck
Social Distortion
1992
27. Stole
Kelly Rowland
2002
28. Haunted
Kelly Clarkson
2007
29. With a Broken Wing
Martina McBride
1997
30. Don't Let Me Get Me
Pink
2002
31. She's Falling Apart
Lisa Loeb
2002
32. Take One Breath
The Spill Canvas
2014
33. Zero
Hawk Nelson
2006
34. Shine
Vanessa Amorosi
2000
35. F*ckin' Perfect
Pink
2010
36. The Outsider
A Perfect Circle
2003
37. Joining You
Alanis Morrisette
1998
38. Stand In the Rain
Superchick
2006
39. Welcome to My Life
Simple Plan
2004
40. Wonderful Life
Hurts
2010
41. In a New York Minute
Don Henley
1990
42. Hold On
Good Charlotte
2003
43. Save You
Kelly Clarkson
2009
44. Suicide Alley
Shawn Colvin
1996
45. Sweet Old World
Lucinda Williams
1992
46. The Pass
Rush
1989
47. Don't Close Your Eyes
Kix
1988
48. Reason To Live
KISS
1987
49. Answer
Sarah McLachlan
2004
50. The Last Letter
Michael W. Smith
1985
51. The Light
Disturbed
2015
52. 1-800-273-8255
Logic (featuring Alessia Cara & Khalid)
2017
53. Move Along
The All-American Rejects
2005
54. Truce
Twenty One Pilots
2012
55. Friend, Please
Twenty One Pilots
2009
56. No Giving Up
Crossfade
2004
57. Out of Control
Oingo Boingo
1990
58. Staying Alive
Cursive
2003
59. Life Left To Go
SafetySuit
2008
60. Rise Above This
Seether
2007
61. You’re Not Alone
Saosin
2006
62. Missing You
All Time Low
2015
63. Come Out Fighting
Pennywise
1991
64. The Great Escape
Pink
2012
65. Angel and Airwaves
Angel Haze
2013
66. One More Light
Linkin Park
2017
67. Heavy
Linkin Park
2017
68. Vincent (Starry, Starry Night)
Don McLean
1971
69. You Will Be Found
Ben Platt & the Cast of Dear Evan Hanson
2015
70. 24 Floors
The Maine
2015
71. Imperfection
Evanescence
2017
72. Easy Way Out
Low Roar
2014
73. Home
Foo Fighters
2007
74. Keep Talking
Pink Floyd
1994
75. The World I Know
Collective Soul
1995
76. Asleep
The Smiths
1986
77. Don't Close Your Eyes
Kix
1988
78. One More Day
Andrew Case and Laura J. Miller
2018
79. Forest for the Trees
Huey Lewis and the News
1986
80. Seasons in the Sun
Terry Jack
1973
81. I Need a Miracle
Third Day
2012
82. When It Rains
Paramore
2007
83. Lullabies
All Time Low
2005
84. Ghost
Badflower
2018
Got a song suggestion for this playlist? Leave us a comment in the Comments Section below.

The Grandparents May Be at Risk, Too

Suicide in the elderly is rarely impulsive.  It may be motivated by the loss of friends and loved ones, pets and diminished autonomy and health.  White men 85 and older die by suicide at rates four times higher that of any other age group.
Suicide in the elderly is rarely impulsive. It may be motivated by the loss of friends and loved ones, pets and diminished autonomy and health. White men 85 and older die by suicide at rates four times higher that of any other age group. | Source

Questions & Answers

  • I am sixteen-years-old, and my mom keeps telling me that I’m a burden to her and one day she’ll abandon me. She makes me feel terrible, and I can’t stand it. My parents divorced when I was six. My father died when I was eleven. The next year, my uncle died. He was like a father to me. His death really hurt me, and it still does. I was always a top student, trying my best, but it’s no use. I feel really worthless, and I want to end my life. What should I do?

    You've had a very difficult life so far, and I'm sorry for the shame you've felt and personal losses that you have experienced. Please don't have tunnel vision by assuming that your life will always be this way. You have the power to plot your own course in life. Don't give up on yourself by making an irreversible decision.

    Sadly, we cannot choose our parents or control their behavior. Your mother does not seem to be coping well, and she is taking out her stress on you. Sure, adulting is stressful just as being a teen is difficult, but YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME for her poor coping skills. It's likely that she doesn't understand the impact of her words.

    Turn to friends, trusted relatives, teachers, or a school counselor, for example, who believe in you and can provide you with understanding, encouragement, and positive affirmation. Keep your grades up, as education (even community college) can be your way out, and you owe it to yourself to do your best. Stay away from alcohol and drugs and any temptation to escape your current situation in an unhealthy manner.

    You're at a vulnerable age in your life, and I'm asking you to re-commit yourself to YOU because the world is better with you in it. You are worth the investment.

    If you are in crisis and feel like you may harm yourself, call 911 for immediate life-saving assistance. You may also contact one of the following resources for talk or text support:

    1) National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433)

    If you or someone you know are depressed and considering suicide, call the National Hopeline Network at 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433). Your call is free and confidential. Or chat live with a crisis volunteer at http://hopeline.com/.

    2) National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1.800.273.TALK (8255)

    Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) to talk with a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area. Available 24 hours a day, seven days a week.

    3) Crisis Text Line Number 741741

    If you're in crisis and prefer to text rather than call, then here's a confidential crisis text line staffed nationally by trained counselors in suicide prevention. Text "HOME" to 741741 from anywhere in the United States.

  • I'm losing myself. It's like I'm about to fall into a very dark cave and the people that are holding me are slowly letting go. I just want to hide from the world, and go "home." I need help, but I'm not sure if I can say that out loud. So I'm asking it this way: How can I stay?

    My sweet friend, you've done the right thing in acknowledging to yourself that you feel like you are sinking. The world wants you to stay here among us. Just because you are unhappy now doesn't mean it'll always be this way.

    Please don't feel disappointed in your social support system or yourself. It's likely that one or more of the following are true:

    1) While those around you who love and care for you want desperately to make it all better, they don't have the right skills, experience, or insights to do so. Thus, the deeper you fall, the more confused they feel about how to help.

    2) They may not understand that the gravity of your issues includes suicide unless you have been absolutely explicit with them about it -- and even then denial may be at play.

    3) You may very well have a biochemical imbalance such as clinical depression that could be remedied with medicine if you saw a professional.

    If you are in crisis now, immediately contact 911, one of the crisis lines mentioned in this article, or one in your community. We need you here, and we need you feeling well.

    If you are not at immediate risk of self-harm, then contact a clinical or counseling psychologist, psychiatrist, or another qualified mental health professional for an appointment. Do this today. You could start with the names your insurance plan permits. You can also ask your family, friends, and family doctor for recommendations. If your income is limited, there are many that provide services on a "sliding fee schedule." A social support system is crucial, but I cannot emphasize enough that you need to get to a professional who can help you.

    As far as general strategies for hanging on, here's what I can offer:

    1) make a gratitude list of all the things for which you are thankful for, no matter how big or small. Perhaps write a paragraph about each: your friend who does the awkward celebrity impressions, your dog and his sloppy wet kisses, the way your mom sings off key to 5 Seconds of Summer and thinks she's nailing it, being an American, the smell of fresh cut grass, Chick-Fil-A -- whatever is important to you.

    This list is more than a distraction. It's an evolving list of the reasons why despite all the shitty things that go on in this world, it's worth having you tough it out and stay here for the long haul.

    2) If you find yourself in a bind, feeling like you might harm yourself, STOP. Do what you need to do to delay acting on the deadly impulse. Tell yourself you're going to discuss your decision with three people first to see what they think. (That's what you'd do with any other major life decision, right? You'd talk to people -- probably several of them.) Then, call 911, a crisis line, or your therapist for help. Or decide to wait a day or a week, then another. Postpone it until the feeling passes. This is not a substitute for getting urgent help but rather a way to keep you here until you can get access to the resources you desperately need.

    3) Keep trying to share your feelings with your social support system, and let them know the severity of your dark feelings. If you cannot say the words out loud, the write them down. Ask for their help, and be specific. You need them, just as they need you.

    4) Build yourself a safety net by removing firearms from your home and avoiding alcohol and drugs which could impair rational thinking.

    I reiterate that the world needs you here and feeling well. Please stay here with us.

  • I believed the relationship with the love of my life would last forever. I forgot, however, that people change. She was my drug when I was depressed, but now that she is gone I can't breathe. I have nothing besides her. What should I do?

    I'm concerned that you refer to your ex as your drug. No healthy person wants to be depersonalized as you describe. What were you bringing to the table in the relationship if she was your "drug?"

    People are not drugs to be exploited for one's self-medication, particularly in excess and to the extent that it is toxic for both parties. They instead have feelings, thoughts, and free will to consent to love relationships. Relationships require give and take. They should not be used as substitutes for seeking professional help for mental illness and doing the hard but worthwhile work that is involved in therapy. I suspect you may have been using her as a substitute for seeking professional help for your depression. That's not fair to her, nor is it good for you.

    Since she has left you, I recommend that you let your ex and her memory go and learn from the situation. Work on addressing your depression and any other issues you are struggling with by seeking help from a professional counselor or therapist. There is absolutely no shame in that. Before you attempt to be in a love relationship, you need first to be healthy yourself. Go forward and seek to be as healthy as you dare!

  • The walk happens today on my birthday. I have no doubts, but I am afraid. No one understands me. I have tried to make them understand what I'm going through. How do people cope?

    I can only assume that you are referring to participating in the Out of the Darkness Suicide Prevention Walk which raises money and awareness for suicide prevention. People who participate in this event understand deeply the devastation that death by suicide can bring to family members, friends, coworkers, acquaintances, and others who are left behind when their loved one dies by suicide. (I can attest that losing someone this way is deeply traumatic and forever life-changing.) Talk to some of them about why they are participating in the walk and the loved ones they lost to suicide.

    Although you've made attempts to share your feelings of distress, perhaps you haven't connected with the right people in the right way. (I'm not blaming you.) For example, you may have thought you were being clear but were perceived as joking or referring to people in general, or you were being too vague to be understood. (Suicide, by the way, is never a joke.) Or perhaps you were perfectly clear, but the people you turned to lacked the required skills to effectively listen and responsibly act.

    I strongly urge you not to give up on yourself. Keep trying. You're worth it. Here are some tips for coping.

    1) Contact a crisis line or 911 if you are in immediate danger of self-harm. Several excellent options are listed in the article. Keep the numbers with you in your wallet just in case you need them in the future. You never know.

    2) You're absolutely not alone in feeling that no one understands you. We ALL feel lonely, sad, rejected, or like giving up from time to time. However, if you're feeling like this on a regular basis rather than short-term, you may have clinical depression or another treatable mental illness. There is no more shame in this than having a physical illness, so do not let that stop you from seeking potentially life-saving treatment. I recommend that you seek out a mental health practitioner such as a clinical or counseling psychologist, psychiatrist, or mental health counselor. If you don't know where to start, try your family doctor and be super plain about your needs: "I have been feeling very depressed for the past x months, and I need a referral (or the name and number of) a qualified clinical or counseling psychologist. Will you recommend one?"

    3) Exercise releases endorphins (the body's natural narcotics) that will help boost your mood as well as help you keep fit. Depending on the location and type of exercise, you may also meet new friends this way.

    4) Make sure you are also eating right and getting enough sleep. Stuffing your body with junk food and depriving it of rest will cloud your thinking and limit your coping resources. Now is also NOT the time to turn to alcohol or other substances for relief. You need a clear mind and health body.

    5) Remove your access to firearms. PLEASE! Note that suicide is often not a well-planned act but instead reactionary. By thinking ahead and removing access to this extremely lethal means of self-harm, you're potentially saving your life.

    6) Look into ways that you can help others either informally or formally, through volunteering. Turning your attention outward rather than inward can help you feel good about your contributions to others' well being and make you feel needed.

    6) Humor can really help when you're depressed -- funny movies on Netflix, YouTube videos, going to a comedy club, for example. Like exercise, laughing releases endorphins that can boost your mood.

    7) Try to expand and deepen your social support network. Spend more time with people who validate you as a person. Broaden your friendship circle to include other positive influences -- people who are easy to talk to, people who make you laugh, etc.

    8) Express yourself through a journal or creatively. Being able to get your feelings out into written word may help you process them.

    I hope these ideas help you.

  • You said you had both a friend and family members who have died by suicide. How have their deaths affected you, if you don’t mind sharing?

    To say that a loved one's suicide leaves you with profound, lingering loss is an understatement. The devastation can last decades or even a lifetime and is a unique type of loss in that your loved one chose to leave you and everyone else in their life, most often without saying goodbye. There's no "rewind" on a loved one's suicide; it has irrevocably changed who I am. Tears can unexpectedly crop up from a song or a memory even all these years later. For relatives, it also impacts future generations who never knew the relative who died by suicide.

    I felt

    1) denial (especially in the beginning)

    2) for years felt a lot of anger and resentment towards my loved one who died and people who I blamed for causing them to be so troubled

    3) regret and wondering if I could have changed their decision (a coulda-woulda-shoulda phenemenon), and

    4) now, I mostly feel just sadness at all the good things they're missing.

    There's also some level of fear that it may strike again to someone I know or love which it has. When that happens, it's like a wound has been ripped back open.

    People don't know how to talk about suicide, so those grieving a loved one's suicide often suffer social stigma. There's a lot of shame associated with it. Thankfully, this has diminished somewhat over the last few years. I still find it most distressing knowing that a loved one was in that much psychological pain that they saw death as the best option.

    I have come to empathize fully with the sad choice that multiple loved ones have made. I hope that anyone reading this who is considering suicide will STOP and call 911 or one of the crisis support lines listed in the article. We need you here in this world. Life is worth living.

© 2016 FlourishAnyway

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      4 days ago from USA

      blue16 - I'm deeply concerned about you. My own father lost his mother and brother to suicide as a teenager, and the grief is lifelong.

      First, if you lost your father to suicide at such a tender age and didn't have a strong support system, there are likely lingering issues that you need help in dealing with in order to lead a healthy life. Having a family member who died by suicide puts one at higher risk oneself.

      It's probably the case that since your mother was so deeply and personally impacted as well that she may not be equipped to be there for you then or now.

      I do congratulate you for recognizing the need for help and asking for it. I'm sorry that your mother isn't responding to get you the professional assistance you are requesting. Please redouble your efforts by enlisting the support of an adult relative who cares or another trusted adult like a teacher, school counselor, family physician, friend of the family, etc. Be candid, using blunt language when describing the problem so they know exactly what you're saying. Also know that if you are 18, you don't need parental permission to see a doctor or therapist. If you're on Mom's insurance, just discuss with her so you have your insurance card and work out the payment details with her. There may also be clinics in your community with sliding scales available.

      Second, cutting is not going to solve your emotional pain, and I think on some level you know that. Does your mother know you are cutting? Rather than trying to relieve your anxiety and pain through cutting, please seek an outlet that is healthier. Avoid drugs and alcohol. Exercise releases a natural feel-good drug called endorphins to the body and can be a positive alternative. Meditation and relaxation breathing are other options for stress release. Please pursue what works for you while you seek professional help.

      Third, I'm going to reiterate at the end of my comments below the suicide prevention resources that were mentioned in the article. In addition, because you mentioned that your step-father is a "horrible man" and I don't exactly know how you mean that, I'm going to provide you with another resource: the National Child Abuse Hotline (1-800) 4-A-Child or (1-800) 422-4453, available 24/7. Contact them if you need their assistance as well.

      Fourth, there's an organization, Survivors of Suicide Loss, that has some good online resources that I'd like for you to take a look at.

      These are the types of resources that I wish were available when I lost my friend to suicide. Here's their link: https://www.soslsd.org/resources/. They have free downloadable suicide loss books for parents, teens, and children (3 different books) to help different audiences understand their grief.

      Also available is a Handbook of Survivors of Suicide Loss from the American Academy of Suicidology: https://www.soslsd.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/01/... Please be sure to access this terrific resource as well: https://www.helpguide.org/articles/suicide-prevent... It describes action steps to take if you are feeling suicidal.

      NOW THE SUICIDE PREVENTION HELP NUMBERS AGAIN:

      If you are in crisis and feel like you may harm yourself, call 911 for immediate life-saving assistance. You may also contact one of the following resources for talk or text support:

      1) National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433)

      If you or someone you know are depressed and considering suicide, call the National Hopeline Network at 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433). Your call is free and confidential. Or chat live with a crisis volunteer at http://hopeline.com/.

      2) National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1.800.273.TALK (8255)

      Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) to talk with a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area. Available 24 hours a day, seven days a week.

      3) Crisis Text Line Number 741741

      If you're in crisis and prefer to text rather than call, then here's a confidential crisis text line staffed nationally by trained counselors in suicide prevention. Text "HOME" to 741741 from anywhere in the United States.

      blue16, again, I am concerned about you. Ultimately, only YOU can save you, but I trust that you will take the steps necessary to stay with us in this world. We need you here with us. The world is a better place with you in it.

      Kindest regards,

      FlourishAnyway

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      blue16 

      4 days ago

      My dad commit suicide when I was 5 and then my mom married this horrible man. I feel like I won't ever be myself again. I cut to help the pain but its just getting worse. Whenever I try to get help my mom rolls her eyes and doesn't even care but when my brother asks for help she immediately takes him to a therapist and gets him meds and a psychiatrist. Ever since my mom was diagnosed with cancer it seems I don't even know who she is anymore. If I can't get help what do I do?

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      FlourishAnyway 

      7 days ago from USA

      Me - Ghost is #84 on the song list. Thanks for taking the time to leave a comment. Be well.

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      Me 

      7 days ago

      Ghost by badflower

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      FlourishAnyway 

      10 days ago from USA

      stevensondr2 - Thank you for the song suggestions. Be well.

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      stevensondr2 

      11 days ago

      Two songs that are definitely missing from this list are Fingertips by Tapping the Vein & A Quitter by Rasputina. I have been looking for something similar to those two.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      11 days ago from USA

      Randy - That was a very powerful comment and personal account. Please do what you need to do to stay strong and stay with us HERE on earth. You are good enough, and we need you.

      Thank you for your service and the bravery exhibited in telling your story here. The more that servicemen and servicewomen such as yourself and Jason Kander (Kansas City mayor candidate who dropped out of race, citing PTSD and suicidal thoughts) come forward and talk honestly about the struggle, the more lives will be saved. I wish you all the best, FlourishAnyway

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      Randy 

      11 days ago

      22. That is the number of u.s. service men and women who take their own lives on a daily basis. I have been very close to being part of this staggering statistic. The loneliness thar comes from either surviors guilt or just not feeling like you fit into this huge world is a big reason for this. Me personally it was the feeling of not being good enough for anything else. At thr time of my attempt i was stagnet in life and everything i touched seemed to crumble to the ground. I still struggle with all of this on the daily. Music ans wrighting are what keeps me above the darkness even if its just above

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      FlourishAnyway 

      3 weeks ago from USA

      Lisa shyone - Thanks for giving me a heads up about this band. I did actually listen to the song as well as take a look at the lyrics. Initially, I didn't put it on the playlist because the lyrics seemed not to clearly enough advocate anti-suicide. However, I just read an article in Forbes as well as some additional on-line comments that people are clearly perceiving it as having an anti-suicide message, so thank you for persisting. I will add it, friend. It is a catchy song and again thank you for reading. All the best, FlourishAnyway

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      Lisa shyone 

      3 weeks ago

      FlourishAnyway, It's Lisa . . .again. I'm wondering if you really heard the song I suggested for you to add. This song is going viral in a good way. I believe your followers should be aware of this powerful song (if they're not already). Just reading some of the heart full, genuine comments tells it all. Listen again, this song belongs on your list. For all the dedicated followers of this post who might be interested and this is not an advertisement, the song is Ghost and the unknown band is Badflower. Enjoy!

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      FlourishAnyway 

      3 weeks ago from USA

      Rafaella Murad - Thank you for those two song suggestions. I've added them both. Be well and be happy. Wishing you all the best. - FlourishAnyway

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      Rafaella Murad 

      3 weeks ago

      i’d add when it rains - paramore and lullabies - all time low!!

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 weeks ago from USA

      Jason, I'm willing to consider it. Can you provide me the title and the name you sing under plus a link to the song on YouTube when available? Feel free to include other information in the Comments Section here as people do read them (e.g., why you wrote the song).

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 weeks ago from USA

      Shyron - Thanks for the song suggestion. I placed this song on the playlist about songs that tell a story. Hope you are doing well.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 weeks ago from USA

      Shannon - There are so many people who are hurting deeply. If they are Googling songs about suicide and suicide prevention, then I am happy that they have connected to this article that gives them not only the songs they seek but also crisis-related resources that they may need, either now or in a pinch. September is National Suicide Prevention Month and it's the least I can do to create awareness.

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      Shyron E Shenko 

      5 weeks ago from Texas

      The only song I can think of that is not here is the 'Ode to Billy Jo'. I am sure that I will think of several others .

      Blessings my dear friend

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      Shannon Henry 

      5 weeks ago from Texas

      OMG! These questions and answers are heartbreaking, especially since so many are teens. Bless you for being a means of support!!!

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      FlourishAnyway 

      8 weeks ago from USA

      Dylon - Thanks for the song suggestion.

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      Dylon 

      8 weeks ago

      Child Psychology by Black Box Recorder

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      karsten - Thank you for the suggestion. I've added the song at #80.

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      karsten 

      2 months ago

      seasons in the sun is missing

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Roadiepat - "Fade to Black" is indeed remarkable for its guitar solo. I was quite young, but I recall when it was first released. I appreciate your taking the time to make song suggestions. With death by suicide being so prevalent today and having known so many people who have died this way, my reason for not including them is that I wanted to encourage people to decide not to make such a deadly, irreversible choice. I appreciate you.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Joe - Thank you for the song suggestion, which I have added.

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      Roadiepat 

      2 months ago

      Band Pantera. Song suicide note part 1 & 2. Power ballad (Pt. I), metalcore (Pt.II)

      Fade to Black" is a song and the first power ballad by American heavy metal band Metallica, released as the first promotional single from its second studio album, Ride the Lightning. The song was ranked as having the 24th best guitar solo ever by Guitar World readers

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      Joe 

      2 months ago

      Here's another song for your playlist: "Forest For The Trees" by Huey Lewis and The News.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Laura J Miller - This song is beautiful, and I am adding it to both this playlist and my playlist on Missing Someone You Love. My deepest condolences go out to both of you on your losses. I believe others with find comfort in this song. Peace to you both, FlourishAnyway

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Scaredy cat - Thank you for taking the time to leave me a comment. I'm adding "You're Not Innocent" to my playlist on Haters, Bullies, and Other Mean, Jealous People because the song is a good reminder of the consequences of bullying. All the best to you, Flourish.

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      Scardy cat 

      2 months ago

      Dear FlourishAnyway heard of song called You're Not Innocent by Codi Kaye? or Her last words by Courtney Parker? If yes sorry for bothering if not you should give it a try

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Lisa - That song is heartbreaking. I appreciate your stopping by.

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      Lisa shyone 

      2 months ago

      Dear FlourishAnyway I'm a music browser, always looking for unique clever lyric driven songs with a combined melody to match. Every once in a great while I'll stumble across a real unknown diamond in the rough. I would like to share that find with you. The Band is called Badflower the song is Ghost. Enjoy! - Lisa

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Peter - I appreciate the suggestion and have added the song to the list.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Unknown - Thanks for the heads up.

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      Péter 

      2 months ago

      I suggest "Easy Way Out" by Low Roar. Great list, thank you.

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      2 months ago

      Friend, please is on the list twice

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      FlourishAnyway 

      2 months ago from USA

      Unnanmed - Thank you for the song suggestion.

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      Unnamed 

      3 months ago

      Gloomy Sunday?

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      FlourishAnyway 

      3 months ago from USA

      Joshua - Thanks for the song suggestion. I'll add it to the playlist. Have a good weekend!

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      FlourishAnyway 

      3 months ago from USA

      Guy - Thank you for the song suggestions. I appreciate your reading and chipping in. I added "Asleep" to the playlist but didn't add "Adam's Song" because it of the message overall.

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      Joshua 

      3 months ago

      Listen to deaf havana - Boston square?

      Discussing suicide of an old friend, honest opinions

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      Guy 

      3 months ago

      How about “Asleep” by The Smiths anc “Adam’s Song” by blink-182?

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      FlourishAnyway 

      3 months ago from USA

      Anonymous - I hope you do not suffer alone but rather seek support from others who care about you. Thank you for stopping by and sharing both your experience and your song suggestion. You may have mental illness but you aren't effed up.

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      Anonymous 

      4 months ago

      Hey there. I'm 20 years old and at 16 years old, I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder, which is one heck of a combo. I'm up all night every night, I hardly sleep, and I hardly eat. Since I was 16 I have attempted suicide a few times. One thing that helps me, as evidenced by me reading this post, is music. One song that has helped me out a lot recently is called All F*cked Up by The Amity Affliction (All Messed Up if you prefer acoustics). The song is heavily based around the idea of suffering alone, and I really suggest people to listen to this song.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      4 months ago from USA

      Steve - Thanks for your comment and suggestions. I've added "Keep Talking" here and added "Life in One Day" to a playlist about Songs That Give Life Advice. "Hero" is on a playlist about Heroes and Superheroes. Thanks again for your suggestions.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      4 months ago from USA

      OnlytheLonely - Thanks for the song suggestion which I added. I encourage you to please seek the help of a professional. What you're feeling is likely biochemical, and you can be helped. Too many of my own extended family members have died this way, in addition to a beloved high school friend. There's no shame in reaching out to a professional for assistance. Do this for yourself and anyone who loves or needs you.

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      OnlyTheLonely 

      4 months ago

      By far and away, my favorite song, and specifically music video which has seen me through many difficult days is Collective Soul's "The World I Know."

      So I walk up on high

      And I step to the edge

      To see my world below

      And I laugh at myself

      While the tears roll down

      'Cause it's the world I know

      Oh it's the world I know

      One day, the fondness of the memory of feeling called back from the edge so instantly through the feelings inspired by this song and video may not be enough - after all, suicide is a spur of the moment thing - but I am grateful for all the good days it gave me.

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      Steve 

      4 months ago

      I'd have to add this one that always puts me in a better mood, and definitely "life-affirming". Please add "Life in One Day" by Howard Jones. Some of the lyrics are a little silly, like:

      "I tried to live my life in one day

      Don't go speed your time away

      I bit off more than I can chew

      Only so much you can do

      Wolves are gathering round my door

      Ask them in and invite some more"

      i.e., its one of those things that's easy to say because you're not the one going through it. But still, it helps me.

      And we all know this one, but "Hero" by Mariah Carey is excellent as well.

      A 3rd one is good as well, though a bit uncommon. "Keep Talking" by Pink Floyd. To me it's about someone who feels like they cannot express (or won't express) how they feel and what's on their mind, and the "chorus" is saying back to the person, "it doesn't have to be like this, just keep talking," that all that matters.

      I hope this helps someone.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      4 months ago from USA

      Brian - If you feel you are in crisis, there are emergency numbers available in the article above.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 months ago from USA

      Angela Abela - That song is very sad and probably predicted what he was going to do. I hope your life is going well and you feel loved and happy.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 months ago from USA

      Michael - If you feel like harming yourself, then contact one of the resources above that can help you or call 911 or the emergency services in your community. Do so without delay

      a) National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433)

      b) National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1.800.273.TALK (8255)

      c) Crisis Text Line Number 741741

      YOU can save yourself and create options for yourself, depressed or not. Talk to someone.

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      Michael 

      5 months ago

      Sometimes it's not about depression. Sometimes it's about running out of options and no one to save you.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 months ago from USA

      David - Stay strong, reach out to someone who can help you work through what you're going through, and realize that you are absolutely not alone. I'm glad this helped! All the best. Flourish

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      David 

      5 months ago

      I just wanted to thank you for what you did with this playlist.

      I'm not sure if it will help me get over what I'm going through right now, but it definitely helped me to cope with all the feelings that are going through my mind right now.

      My life has been unbelievable hard the last few month and I couldn't even cry anymore, tilled i heard some of these songs. They definitely did break some kind of barrier inside of me. I'm a full ass grown man, but damn, this list did touch my heart.

      If it will help me in the end, I don't know yet, but I'm damn glad i found it.

      Bless you!

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 months ago from USA

      Ronnie - If you feel like harming yourself, then contact one of the resources above that can help you or call 911 or the emergency services in your community. Do so without delay

      a) National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433)

      b) National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1.800.273.TALK (8255)

      c) Crisis Text Line Number 741741

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      Ronnie 

      5 months ago

      I feel like dying right now

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      Angela Abela 

      5 months ago

      Give a listen to Eyepennies by Sparklehorse. The singer suffered from depression and unfortunately did commit suicide eventually.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 months ago from USA

      Barb - I'm so sorry for the loss of both your daughter and your grandson. Please don't make it a triple tragedy. The remainder of your family, your friends, and the rest of your social network cares about you more than you can process in this time of extraordinary grief. Please contact one of the suicide prevention resources above, your family doctor, a counselor, psychologist, psychiatrist, anyone qualified to help you. And do it today. Your daughter wouldn't want you to follow in her footsteps. You are hurting tremendously, but the world here needs you in it, sweet lady.

      National Hopeline Network 1.800.SUICIDE (1.800.784.2433)

      National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1.800.273.TALK (8255)

      Crisis Text Line Number 741741

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      Barb 

      5 months ago

      My daughter hung herself after her new born son died. All I think about is dying. I am too sad to live without her. Nothing is the same. I cant stand the pain. I cant breathe without her ..

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 months ago from USA

      Jack W - I should do a playlist on misheard lyrics. I can see how you might hear it that way, especially when surrounded by the lyrics about giving up! Thanks for commenting. I appreciate you.

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      Jack W 

      5 months ago

      Check out "Time for me to fly" by REO Speedwagon. I swear the singers are sayiing "Time for me to die"

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      FlourishAnyway 

      5 months ago from USA

      Adriana - The song is certainly catchy. I wish it had an anti-suicide message. Thanks for taking the time to comment. Be safe.

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      Adriana 

      5 months ago

      One of the songs I listen to is Bullet by Hollywood Undead, I think it would be a good addition

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Haleigh - Please reach out to someone who can help you. The world is better with you in it.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Jayne - I'm so sorry about your loss. Sadly, I do understand. Please talk with someone who can listen with empathy and help you through this very difficult time. I wish you all the best in healing.

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      Haleigh 

      6 months ago

      I just turned 16 and I have tried to die 2 times with 1 failed attempt I started to listen to fifth harmony and Camila cabello and they really helped me

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      Jayne 

      6 months ago

      Foofighters ‘home’ from echos silence patience and grace I have lost 3 people I love to suicide and this is the song my boyfriend chose before he took his life 4 weeks ago

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Lucy - Thank you for the song suggestion. I've added it as #72. All the best to you, Flourish

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Joe - I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend by suicide. I know personally what it's like to lose someone close in this way. Reach out to others, get counseling, and do whatever you need to do to ensure your health and positive wellbeing.

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      Lucy 

      6 months ago

      Another song is ‘Friend, Please’ by Twenty Øne Piløts

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      Joe 

      6 months ago

      Suicide letters by tech n9ne is a song I listen to a lot. Heather Nicole by hopsin was a song referenced by my best friend before he took his life. I find myself listening to it constantly to see life through his eyes.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Colleen - Reach out to the free crisis resources if you need to and ask for help. Sometimes there are counselors and therapists who see clients on a sliding fee schedule. They might be able to assist you in locating such a resource.

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      colleenmac 

      6 months ago

      I dont know what to say.......... All seems ok... Except when you have no health ins. to help.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Moria Adank - Thank you for sharing your thoughts. You just keep getting up and know you are valued and have a place in this world!

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      Moira Adank 

      6 months ago

      Thank you for publishing this article. As someone who struggles with low self-worth & intense thoughts, this really helps me to keep going even when I just wanna lie down and not get up.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Heather - Thank you for that song suggestion. I have added it as #71. Have a good week.

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      Heather 

      6 months ago

      Imperfection - Evanescence

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      FlourishAnyway 

      6 months ago from USA

      Cristiane Piacentini - Thank you for stopping by and suggesting this song. I'm adding it as #70. Have a great day.

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      Cristiane Piacentini 

      6 months ago

      Hey I suggest the song 24 floors by the maine, is a really great song when you need a remainder that there's people caring about you.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      7 months ago from USA

      Kath - You owe it to yourself and those who love you to reach out to a crisis helpline, family doctor, counselor, and others who can listen and help you to let them know what you're feeling. Suicide impacts families for generations. It's a permanent answer to temporary problems in one's life, although it may not seem like that right now. Allow someone to help you see that.

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      Kath 

      7 months ago

      Am glad I stumbled on this page. I went on line to look for suicidal music, as in songs leading up to the act (not sure if that makes sense). I ended up here and will download all the songs suggested and make a play list. I like slow songs, so will probably put those first.

      I don't want to live anymore, or perhaps i don't want to be where i am right now. Been crying my self to sleep for a really long time. The thoughts and feelings come and go, but this 2018, guess they choosing not to go. Looking for options to be else but where i am. Unfortunately, taking the last breath is also on the table. Just read here that people left behind suffer, that makes a bit of sense, so does saying goodbye. Had never thought about the former before though.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      7 months ago from USA

      Turtle/Big Country - I have MS, too, so I do understand the disease and what it can do to one's body and spirit. I urge you to make the call to the crisis hotline listed without delay. As in right now.

      Alternatively, go to the local emergency room, tell relatives exactly what you're planning, or at minimum call your local MS Society chapter to talk to someone who truly understands what MS does to one's life.

      You're in charge of your fate. You have other options. The fact that you clicked on this article which indicates it includes songs about suicide prevention and shared your plans means there's a part of you that still wants to live.

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      NOTHING LEFT BUT A SHELL 

      7 months ago

      Hello. I used to be called TuRtLe. I currently reside in a hell inside my head in MS. There used to be a man inside of me. I've reached out. To my father, my fake friends, my loved ones and my old lady but no one would listen. They just all ran from the situation and pushed it under the rug. But I'm at peace now knowing what my future holds for me. On 04-07-2018 I'll be turning 42. It will be the last birthday these hollowed, haunted and empty eyes will ever see. You see that is when my time here on Earth will expire. That's when I'll say goodbye. I like what you've done here and hope others find it before it's too late for them as well. Thanks for trying. Goodbye

      TuRtLe

      A.K.A. Big Country

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      FlourishAnyway 

      7 months ago from USA

      Jazz - I just wish that song ended differently. Gosh. Thanks for the song suggestion.

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      Jazz 

      7 months ago

      I'm Sorry by Joyner Lucas

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      FlourishAnyway 

      8 months ago from USA

      Katherine - Thank you for this suggestion. Enjoyed this song! I've added it to the following playlist about Sorrow, Grief, and Lost Loved Ones:

      https://spinditty.com/playlists/Pop-Rock-and-Count...

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      Katherine 

      8 months ago

      Everybody Lost Somebody by Bleachers is about coping with the death of a close loved one*

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      Katherine 

      8 months ago

      The song Everybody Lost Somebody by Bleachers is inspired by the loss of the lead singer's sister by suicide.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      8 months ago from USA

      Ella - Thank you for the song suggestion (now #69) and taking the time to comment. All the best, Flourish

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      Ella 

      8 months ago

      You will be found- ben platt

      Dear Even Hanson

      Also thank you for making this list

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      FlourishAnyway 

      9 months ago from USA

      Matthew - I'm so sorry for your loss. I do understand. I lost my friend to suicide 35 years ago and will never really understand why he did it or if something or someone could have changed his mind. Try not to beat yourself up. It's obvious you care a lot. You are not to blame at all.

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      Matthew 

      9 months ago

      I had a friend. Her name was Paige. We knew each other when we were in the same district. She died when I was away. I still wonder if I could have done something.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      9 months ago from USA

      Rob - I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you will reach out to the resources that are listed on this article. The world is better with you in it.

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      Rob 

      9 months ago

      Never Too Late by three days grace is my favorite song I lost my grandmother just days before Christmas and I was already depressed before then just without the suicide but since she's gone I've been more depressed than I've ever been and thinking about suicide a lot more

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      FlourishAnyway 

      10 months ago from USA

      Shiloh Newton - Thanks for leaving a comment. The song certainly is about suicide. I just wish it ended differently. I appreciate the suggestion and wish you all the best, Flourish.

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      FlourishAnyway 

      10 months ago from USA

      Not me - Thank you for sharing your story. Be safe and seek the help you need to stay alive.

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      Shiloh Newton 

      10 months ago

      What about the song "Her Last Words" You cant tell me its not based on suicide!

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      Not me 

      10 months ago

      No one in my life has tried to commit suicide... but I, myself became suicidal and one night I came home from school at midnight because I sat on the cliff debating to throw myself off the edge or not...luckily I'm still here, and I will do what ever it takes to stop someone becoming suicidal

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      FlourishAnyway 

      10 months ago from USA

      Nele - A classic for sure. I have added it as #68. Be healthy and happy this holiday season and beyond. Thank you for taking the time to comment.

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      Nele 

      10 months ago

      Vincent by Don McLean.

      It's about the life and death (by suicide) of the Dutch painter Vincent Van Gogh. The song says near the end

      "And when no hope was left in sight,

      On that starry, starry night

      You took your life, as lovers often do"

      I think it's quite obvious this is a song that fits this list....

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      FlourishAnyway 

      11 months ago from USA

      Raymonnnd - Thanks for the suggestion! Have a great weekend.

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      Raymonnnd 

      11 months ago

      Battle scars by BOB

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